Meaning of life

I was greeted by my cats this morning in bed and while I was patting them and we were looking at each other lovingly I thought to myself “it’s these kinds of moments, this is the meaning of life.” The simple joys that give you this feeling of complete fullness. I think the simple joys are different for a lot of people, depending on who and what you have in your life and what things you get joy from, but generally it’s that feeling of “I feel so full in this moment.” Full of joy, or contentment, or passion, or excitement, or anger. It doesn’t really matter. It’s just that feeling of being really connected to the feeling.

Then I realised how easy it is to not only not notice these moments, but in doing so lose the meaning of life, and effectively eliminate the wonderfulness from a moment even though it’s right there- just by not noticing it! Acknowledging it. Appreciating it. Basking in the feeling it gives you for a moment.

My gratefulness focus last month has helped me come to this conclusion I think. Because through gratefulness we can do all of the above.

Anyway, just a few musings I had that I wanted to get down as it felt like an “epiphany” type moment for me.

July: Healthy eating

Well I’m three days late with this post but that’s not so bad, luckily! This month will be a big challenge for sure. Healthy eating is something that has always been important to me but something I’ve fluctuated with a lot over the years! I’m booked in to see a dietician/nutritionist this afternoon, so being prepared for this month has paid off as there was a long wait list! I’m looking forward to seeing what this woman has to say as thee is a few things I’d like to address this month.

  • I’d like to take care of my gut! I’ve always had problems with things relating to that so I have a feeling it’s the sort of thing I need to maintain every now and again.
  • I’d like to feel better, mood and energy wise. I know that what I eat has a lot to do with how I feel day to day so getting some help with staying on top of that would be great.
  • I’d also like to lose some weight. I’m heavier than I’d like to be, and have been for some years now, and I’m confident that a few simple routine type changes to my eating and exercise will help me the best person I want to be. So I’ll start with food! Because it’s far to cold to be starting an exercise regime! I’ll have more success with that if I start in late spring I think.
  • I also think I have some sort of milk intolerance, or just highly fatty foods in general. Another thing I think is related to my gut!
  • I’d like to introduce more vegetables into my diet. I’d love to be mostly vegetarian aside from occasional meats, but I have far too much reliance on meet and wheat in my diet, so I’d like to address that.
  • I’d also like to try a few new recipes! Create a comprehensive meal plan so I can be organised and have food in the house that’s healthy and ready to go. I could even refer to the meal plan I put together in one of my health units at uni last semester. Plus I’d love to add a few things to my recipe book. I’d like to fall in love with cooking again while also having days of simple “food is fuel” “body is a temple” type attitude.
  • I’d also like to reduce the amount of both sugar and preservatives. Less fast food, less processed food, things like that. More cooking will help with this, such as making my own bread for example, or pizza bases, or sauces and dressings, etc, but I also need to start reading more labels. Make sure I know what’s going into my body.

There may be more than this but for now this is it ๐Ÿ™‚

Big month ahead! Let’s do!

Gratitude wrap up

What a month. I found this focus quite rewarding. I found it did many things for me. On days I was leaning towards cranky and ungrateful I was forced to be more open minded at at least one portion of the day. Some days I just noticed I was automatically being more grateful than usual and seeing the world through a much more positive lense. Other days I realised I found myself overwhelmed with things to be grateful for even when I originally thought it was a bland type of day. None the less, an eye opening month!

This is certainly something I see a lot of value in keeping up too. It’s easy to post gratitude on a blog like this. It’s quick and simple and really changes my outlook.

So that’s my summary I suppose, I’ll still be doing this one! Cheers to doing more from thedocolumn!

Day thirty of gratitude

What a wonderful way to finish off my month of gratitude!!! I had some truly incredible experiences. Whale watching, incredible food, and wonderful company.

Thing to be grateful for: this moment I had when I first spotted a whale flicking its tail in the distance. I felt so inspired by nature. It was a really moving feeling.

Silver lining: I was feeling really insecure about my relationship today but I realised that instead of running straight to my partner with all my thoughts and worries I just wrote them down, didn’t send them through to me, gave the problem time to naturally pass, and it did! Growth!

Person I’m grateful for: the man who recommended the place we went for lunch, it was sensational!!!

Day twenty nine of gratitude

So easy to be grateful today.

Thing to be grateful of: my mum taking the two of us on a lovely getaway for three days. And my boyfriend listening to me vent first thing in the morning about technology problems.

Silver lining: being away from my partner is often undesirable, but the wonderful silver lining is it always makes me realise how much I love him. A little space is always always good for us and brings us that much closer together after.

Person I’m grateful for: my mum. And I’ll let her know as soon as I’ve posted this message ๐Ÿ™‚

Day twenty eight of gratitude

What a day!

Thing to be grateful for: having an absolutely wonderful family that I work for. They are all so lovely. Also grateful for so much productivity today.

Silver lining: although I’ve been stressed about how much to I have to do, especially today, my list was so long. But it was the best feeling getting so much done. I felt so satisfied having my afternoon tea.

Person I’m grateful for: my employees, my boyfriend for cooking dinner and generally being such a good team lately, and myself! For prioritising my health financially.

Day twenty seven of gratitude

The day isn’t over yet, but I’ve already had a few nice moments I’d like to acknowledge.

On the bus to the train today the bus driver was playing music, and it was just so happy and lively. I really appreciated it ๐Ÿ™‚

A heck of a gorgeous view on the way to my parents house today. Something that a million authors have tried to understand the beauty behind is water, I won’t bother trying to understand why it’s wonderful, but man oh man does it have an incredible impact on your state of mind.

Chair to myself all the way to my parents place on the train. Not that common and I was grateful for the personal space.

With my day almost coming to an end I figured I’ll finish off my post now, and what an absolutely exhausting day it has been. I’m not sure why, but lately I have been completely and utterly knackered. Past three days I’d say. Looking forward to a few very chill days at home.

Anyway, gratefulness.

Thing to be grateful for: my dads living condition improvements. My dad has MSA with parkisonian symptoms which means he cant speak, he can’t control his muscles, he can’t feed himself really, he can’t use a toilet, basically he can’t do much of anything! And while his health goes up and down while progressively getting worse, lately he’s had a really bad run. He got rushed to hospital some time ago due to a severe drop in his blood pressure, after which he stayed in hospital for 9 weeks or so. A horrible time for him. Then he got moved to a nursing home while the house gets emergency renovations as otherwise he wouldn’t be allowed to go home at all. It was god awful. This nursing home was out of a horror movie I swear to god. But today? He got a transfer. He is in the most lovely place. A place he deserves. A place that can take care of him, and I’m just so so grateful for that. For my mum too, because now she can rest assured he is being taken care of while she isn’t there. I’m so grateful for people who care.

Silver livings: as absolutely shattered and exhausted as I am, I’m so glad I went to help with the move today. My mum really needed me there and so did my dad. It was all worth it to know I helped them both so much. As tired as I am it feels great to know I was a good daughter and did the right thing. I acted like a decent person and that’s certainly something to feel grateful for.

Person I’m grateful for: tricky one because there’s so many. My mum, for showing me what it’s like to be a strong, caring, patient, kind, organised, efficient woman, and in general for caring about me. My dad for being such a wonderful addition to this world and my life. Certain nursing and aged care staff for taking care of both my mother and father through such a difficult time. Happy and pleasant people just because they bring such a positive energy to he world; even if they aren’t all that wonderful on a more personal level I don’t even mind altogether because they already contribute so much to the world just by smiling. I’m grateful for people who appreciate a smile as much as me, like this woman who served me my lunch today. She was happy I was smiling, which made me keep smiling, which made me realise how much happier the world would be if we outwardly appreciated others positive emotions! 

Anyway, I guess that’ll do for today. I wish I could’ve been more upbeat for mum as I was leaving, but I was just so exhausted, so I’ll just have to hope she knows how grateful I was and hope I expressed it in other ways through out the afternoon.

That’ll do: stay grateful ๐Ÿ™‚

Day twenty six of gratitude

Bit of a shit of a day so I feel I should especially make the effort to be grateful today.

Thing to be grateful for: discovering new things, and spontaneous adventure when my partner and I stumbled into a weird flea market. It wasn’t much but it filled me with a certain sense of… I don’t know, adventure I guess. Also got to try VR for the first time, which was a similar but parallel feeling.

Silver lining of gratefulness: after a gathering at a friends house we were offered a lift home! Having to trek on public transport would’ve sucked but it was so nice of them to offer to drive us home. I was really grateful for that generous offer.

Person to be grateful for: the ones who drove us home! The person who opened his home to us for the gathering. But mostly? My partner. He was wonderful, and falling asleep next to him was easily the best part of my day.

There, look at that. So much to be grateful for on a day where I was miserable for most of it. Even on the bad days there is so many wonderful moments happening around you. I need to be more careful not to get caught up in the negative so much that I stop noticing the lovely things happening around me.

Day twenty of gratitude

With exams and a whirlwind of responsibilities my mind has been a blur lately, but I still think it’s important to take the time to remind myself to be grateful in times like this, so here goes:

Thing I’m grateful for today: was grateful to finish my exam early and have time to have a chat w a few different ppl, and take of my responsibilities quickly, leaving me with time to relax before work. I was also grateful it didn’t rain today, as getting to uni and studying on the way in the rain would be very difficult!

Grateful twist on a negative: having exams is never fun, sure, but I’m grateful for the opportunity to consolidate my understanding of things and an opportunity to make myself the best I can be. For that, I’m grateful for exams in my life. They make me work hard.

Person I’m grateful for: the vet! A free service at my local pet shop, saving me quite a bit of money. I’m also grateful for my employers being so understanding about my exams and other responsibilities- very kind of them.

Day eighteen of gratitude

I had this realisation today that when I began this month I had to go out of my way to be grateful but now, I just AM being more grateful. Naturally. So that’s pretty wonderful. Anyway, on with it!

Thing to be grateful for: this renewed love I have for my boyfriend. It’s like I only just now fell in love with him and I’m experiencing all those happy, safe, comfortable, loving feelings for him for the first time.

Negative thing to be grateful for: my partner going away for a few days really sucks, but it’s kinda nice to miss him. Reminds me of the above, brought me to that, which is just wonderful. Other negative is the washing machine seems to be broken, and while that really sucks I was so grateful that what got stuck in the machine isn’t anything important at all, such a relief!

Person to be grateful for: free delivery dude. Local Thai place delivers for free and that’s so awesome. But that seems a little bit of a stretch to say it’s a specific person so I’ll also say I’m grateful for…. Gah can I say my boyfriend again?! He got me home safe and sound last night and waking up this morning in my own bed was just the best ever and I was so so grateful he forced me to go home from the party.

That’ll do me for now!